Coffee on the Side.

You’re going to wake up now.
Coffee?
Check.
Pillows & Blanket?
Check.
Possibly a good night’s sleep?
Check.

Everything seems right and you might even let yourself smile this morning.
But
Then you go back to being your bitter old self.
Oh, it’s Sunday. You have school tomorrow.
You might have more homework that you didn’t even think about.
But why do that to yourself?
Don’t you want to let yourself be happy?

No.
No, not really.

There’s something wrong when you’re happy.
It’s because when you’re happy,
You’re just waiting for something to go wrong again.

Then you’ll go to sleep,
Or at least try,
And restart this
If you can call it this
Pathetic cycle of your apparent
Life.